Loved him by Tuesday afternoon.

I usually spend Valentine's Day with Desmond Hume. You know, from LOST. And Erica. Me, Desmond, Erica, and our couch. That's how it's been the last two years! And let me tell you, I only have fond memories of those nights.

Well, this year Erica is out of town and Jesse is IN town and Valentine's Day doesn't fall on a Wednesday. Oh, how the universe has triangulated to make me face this day! I mean, it's just another day. I told Jesse I didn't want to go out to eat because I don't think even I could stomach all the Valentine couples in the restaurants and streets. It's like a weird stigma of pressure to celebrate if you're in a couple. We are kind of just gross all the time; there's no need to designate a day.

We're not doing presents, but I told him I'd make him dinner and he's going to provide cocktails. Then we'll probably play backgammon or cribbage and watch Saturday Night Live, because we're also nearly eighty years old. But writing all that out just made me smile. Because we do what we do, and we love each other, and we smile together. We're happy. And we remember that every day, not just today - whether together or apart.

Changed my whole life to make some room.

Smiling Like I Mean It
[songs that make me smile no matter what.]

6. "Everyday is a Holiday" - Esthero featuring Sean Lennon. This song puts me in such a good mood whenever it comes on! It's got "la da das" and horns and when I'm walking down the street I want to break out in song like I'm in a music video. It's such a great walking-in-the-city song because there are lyrics like, "hopped on the metro, and I'm on my way home, but I can't get him out of my mind." Which (obviously!) reminds me of Jesse, WHICH may or may not have made me include it on my last mixtape (playlist, whatever) to him.

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Sidenote: I've decided to make one of those muxtape things I'm hearing so much about, and I'll be linking it here soon! It's just a playlist you can listen to over the computer without downloading or anything - it's pretty brilliant, in my opinion. It even works on my work computer, which never plays anything on youtube or song-wise because of the company firewalls. Check out Erica's HERE! And if you have one, let me listen to it :D

Okay, in two last snippets of music news:

1. My dad e-mailed me this morning because he heard the New Kids on the Block were going to perform on the Today show Friday. My obsession as a kid was pretty fierce. Not gonna lie. Even my dad remembers!

2. Liz Phair's Exile in Guyville is being re-released on ATO Records, slash Dave Matthews label. Also, she's now signed to the label and her next album is due in the fall. Mr. Matthews, I don't loathe you so much as your fans (no offense), but well done, well done. I didn't much like Liz's last fare into recording, but damned if I don't listen to whitechocolatespaceegg at least once a month. Fingers crossed.